Prayers

That is for my best friend Julia.

You probably remember her from a previous post. She is the one who became engaged to the 61 year old man. I wrote about how I was having trouble accepting this. Well, there's been an update.

On July 4th, I received a phone call at my job from Julia's mom, Leslie. She informs me that Julia has gone missing. I thought it had been strange since I had been unable to get ahold of her for about a week now. Usually we talk every day. Apparently she hadn't talked to her mom (who she also calls daily), she hadn't gone to church, she dropped out of KU and she quit her job.

Well, to make a long story short, the police was called and sent out to look for her. They ended up doing a check the welfare at the house Julia and this guy bought. She's there. I don't know what was said or done by Julia, but it caused the officer to feel the need to take her to the hospital to get psychologically evaluated. I guess Julia voluntarily went, and was evaluated. She then was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis (she tested positive for drugs) and was committed to a psychiatric hospital in Topeka (approximately an hour and a half away from where I live).

I saw her today. I wasn't prepared at all for what I saw. She looked perfectly normal, except for what she was saying. Nothing made sense. She tried to have conversation with me and her mom and dad, but she just couldn't. Everything she said just... didn't make sense. But you could tell she thought it made perfect sense. For example, I tried to explain to her how I wouldn't be able to come up to see her at the hospital during the week because I work during visiting hours. She then says 'Oh yes, God works a lot. Isn't that just crazy?!' and laughed. Then she looked at me confused because I didn't understand what she was talking about. And no, she's not under any influence of drugs currently.

I ended up driving home from the hospital crying. I don't know what to do. I know there isn't really anything I can do. I'm so pissed off at her so called "fiance". Who doesn't give a shit about her. He's been lying to me and her parents. He provided her with drugs, which was a huge cause of her psychotic break. He just completely transformed her and it pisses me off. He has no fucking care in the world either. Excuse my language, I'm pissed. He even called me today and tried blaming me for what happened to her. First he tried to gain my sympathy so that I might tell him where she's at, then he realized I wouldn't, so he started insulting me. So, he pissed me off and I ended up calling the PD and having them go search his house for drugs. Unfortunately, he got rid of them by the time they showed up. Oh well, it's an intimidation factor. The police is onto him.

Anyway. I feel like I've lost my best friend. In essence, I have. Nobody knows when she'll come out of this state. I know the only thing that'll fix this is God. He is the only one that can fix her mental state. So I PRAY He does just that. I also pray that He helps me through this because I can honestly say, I don't know what to do. I've never had to deal with anything quite like this so, I can use all the advice and prayers I can get.

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