Julia called me a couple weeks ago. Again, she's still not ok. She was trying to convince me she wasn't on drugs and she was never on drugs. I wish I could believe her. Honestly, I just wish we could go back to how things used to be. But, I can't. We can't. I want to help her but she doesn't think she needs help. You can't help someone who doesn't want it.
And then today I receive a message on MySpace from one of Julia's friends, telling me how terrible and immature I am for the decision I made. *Sigh* You know, all this is already really hard for me, and now I have her "friends" sending me messages and being assholes. I sent one back, explaining that this situation is between Julia and I, and if she were her real friend she would take the opportunity to help her, since I can't. Of course, her friend probably has absolutely no idea that anything is wrong. Nobody but me and her parents were there during the whole thing. Right now, I'm just trying to live my life. I can't sacrifice my life, career and happiness because of her bad choices. If she needs help, I am there for her. And I told her that.
On a happier note, today is my last day in FTO (!!!!). P5 told me yesterday he thinks I'm fine and he's going to pass me. That's a great feeling. I'm nervous, but I know I'll be fine. I just need to concentrate and go over in my head on each call what it is I need to do. I'm always told how smart I am, now I just need to put it to the test :).
Also, I've been invited by a group of firemen (that work for the same city as me) to go to Hooters tomorrow. They're all going at 11am and the really cute one, who I kind of have a liking for, took my number down to call me tomorrow to make sure I go. We'll see. If he remembers to call me, I'll go. However, if he doesn't, I won't go. It's a game yes, but it's my game. I might see them today because they're at the firestation I'm always stopping by to use the restroom. So..... we will see. I really like this particular fireman, so hopefully I get to go and hopefully something connects between us.... You can tell I'm getting a little sick of being single right?
And before I get any questions, yes I still have my date this Saturday. I can date however many guys I want until I find the one I connect with and want to be serious with... That's what I've been told and that's what I'm gonna do.
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4 comments:
I'm sorry about the situation w/ Julia, but she's a big girl and has made her decisions. You are doing the right thing and moving on w/ your life. Sounds like a fun life too, I might add!
Congrats on passing your training; I knew you would. :)
no one here judging who you date girlfriend;)
well done on your training. and screw her other "friend"!!
Abso-freakin'-lutely you can date 10 guys if you want to!
Go for it. This is the time in your life to check out different guys.
You sound like you are at the top of your game right now. That is so awesome to hear the confidence in your 'voice'. Good luck on your date on Sat. Congrats on the the training kudos you have received!
And we expect DETAILS of your date too! Length, girth, stamina... hahaha
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