I Don't Know How To Feel

I'm kind of in a weird mood today. I don't really know why... Today was an 'I don't know' day for me. I enjoyed parts and didn't enjoy parts. Pretty much all I did today was work and it didn't help I only got a few hours of sleep last night (completely my fault, I probably should've just skipped on Worlds of Fun with my family...). Today is my Friday, thank God. I did recruiting today in downtown KC with 3 other guys, all of which were my FTO's. Well, one is my current FTO, who I get along with really well. The other will be my FTO starting a week from today, and the other might be my FTO, but it hasn't been decided yet (will be decided on Tuesday). Anyway, I know each of them individually, but together, it was like a male fest. Plus, it didn't help that they all have rank over me in addition to the whole male ego thing. I had good talks with them, mainly my upcoming FTO, but at times I just wanted to walk away because I felt awkward. I don't know. It could've just been me. Like I said, I'm just in a weird mood. I think I just need sleep.

Tomorrow is mother's day. My mom is pretty sick and I'm sick too. I've been sick for a week or so now and it's just frustrating because I can't get rid of it. I called her to see if she wanted me to come see her tomorrow (she lives in Lawrence). She told me to call her tomorrow to see how she feels. You would think I should just go visit her anyway, bring her chicken soup or something, but my mom likes her space when she's sick. I like my space too. I think I get that from her.

Bleh. It has really been a "Bleh" day. I'm sick, I'm tired, and I think I'm extra sensitive at the present moment. Sometimes being female really freakin sucks.

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